Whatcha gonna do?

This was my original testimony for Mexico...not that I ever used it or anything...

Stay strong:

Everybody has those days. Those days where you just don't wanna do it anymore, those days where all you want to do is be anywhere but where you are now. Those days when all you want is to go somewhere that no one knows you, you have no past, no reputation to proceed you, no one to judge you. Those days where you just don't care what you do, when you just want to be free. Those days where you just feel you can't go on, live anymore.

Those are the days that you're the weakest. Most vulnerable. Any opportunity to make yourself feel better, you jump on it. Anything that even resembles a light at the tunnel, you run for it, not really even caring who or what you have to go through to get there, not really even caring if that light is real, or whether it's just a flash that'll go away. That's the times where you make the worst decisions. Where anyone can get to you.

Thats honestly the worst spot to be. The point that could change the course of your life forever. The hard part? You have to decide. What are you gonna do? You want to feel happy again, to feel whole. You come to a crossroads; what are you gonna do? Go down that dark path, fulfilling yourself for a while, only to face the big consequences later? Settle for the easy, temporary high? Or are you gonna stay strong, pushing through that, with the hope of that small, seemingly non-existent light at the end of the tunnel? Wait for the great thing that awaits you?

It's one of the toughest decisions you're ever gonna make. So the question is, will you just settle for less, or wait for the best? It's hard! But the wait, is truly worth it. That place of wanting everything to just end, it's only temporary! One day, depending on your choice, you'll look back and be able to say, "I was there, but here I am now."

But when you think about it...waiting SUCKS. The hurt seems never ending, day after day. Sometimes you just wait, and wait, and wait. And nothing gets better. In fact, it seems to get worse. But the secret is, when you feel you're at your worst, that's when the change is coming.

So here I am today, to encourage you. I've been in that spot. That spot where all you want is to just go hide under a rock. Where you cry yourself to sleep every night, wishing your life could be better, go back to the way it was before. When you feel so low that you will do ANYTHING to feel better. When you feel like you'll never be really whole and happy again. Where you just feel absolutely, completely alone. But I sat down and thought about why I was that way. That's when I decided, "Hey.I need to just sit back, let this run it's course." Say "no" to this. Stay strong, even when I'm on the rock bottom. And you know what happened? It got better. In fact, even better than before. Not right away, but it did just the same. I didn't settle for the thing I knew would just be okay. Now here I am today, not wanting to trade this beautiful life I have for anything. The experience sucked, but it was most definitely worth it.

So my advice to you. Stay strong. Think about what you're doing, who it'll affect, what'll happen. Don't go for cheap, wait for the quality. NEVER go back to the people who've hurt you before. Choose your friends wisely, surround yourself with a good, genuine group of people. The ones who don't bring you down. The ones who won't leave you when the going gets rough. I would've never made it here without the people who stuck with me. In fact, the one who helped me the most was the one who I never expected. The one who I barely knew just a while ago, but I can now say that they're my best friend, who's always there for me no matter what. I wouldn't be where I am today without him, and I can never repay him for what he's done for me.

I wanna leave you with this. Even if you aren't going through something right now, you will someday. But now or then...it's all up to you, how strong are you? Can you handle it when something happens? When you feel alone, and all you want is love? The decision to stay strong, keep your head, and make the right choice is a life changing one. So what will you do?

A half-asleep revelation.

I don't care if I stand up for what's right then get put down for it. I don't care about being popular. I don't care if people don't like who I'm friends with. I don't care if people don't like who I am. I don't care about impressing people. I don't care if people say I'm too serious or too immature. I don't care if you don't like ME. All I care about is being who God made me to be and shining His light for the world to see! God made me who I am for a reason and I'm not about to conform and be what others want me to be. I'm Lita Broaddus, nobody else. If you've got a problem with that, you've got a problem with God. Now I'm not perfect by any means; I'm far from it. I've got my fair share of problems. I just choose to give it all to Him. I don't normally post things like this, but I'm fed up with it. We need to not care what people think and see ourselves the way God sees us. People are only temporary, God is forever. We need to be pleasing to Him, not to them. I challenge you to check yourself and to figure out who you are: YOU or who the world wants YOU to be. I'm going public with this.